If you follow us on Twitter or Facebook, then you might have read my new favorite word: Godspeed. An expression of good wishes to a person starting a journey.
I just sent my son off to sleepaway camp for his first time, for a month-long stay. In a perfect world: I should be partying. FREEDOM! Truth: I have a splitting headache and my eyes look as if I’ve been punched by Rocky Balboa. All of a sudden, it feels hard to breathe. I know that he asked to go away this summer, I just have a very heavy heart. I wish I could be like the moms who smile and wave, and off go their kids, merrily on their way, as the bus drives off into the distance. Unfortunately, that’s not me, not my husband, and not my kid. He’s attached, I’m attached, and it’s the only way I’ve known how to raise my kids – in the bosom of uber amounts of nurturing, affection and love. I’ll spare you the gory details, but truth is, it was very rough on him.
So, my favorite word shows itself once again. As my son starts a journey of his own, his first journey without his safety net, I send him an expression of good wishes, albeit from afar. But today, my heart feels broken.
Some days, motherhood is a bitch.
Godspeed my son, xo
Aw mommy don’t worry. He will have a great summer and you will enjoy your freedom once he settles in. The first time they leave is always the hardest. Be strong.
I know.I know. Thank you Leah. 😉
It is indeed a great word! It’s a well wishing word and becomes you Erica!
I completely relate to your motherhood angst regarding issues of attachment and separation.
Wishing you ease during these transitions of temporary separations.
Cynthia I so appreciate this. Thank you. All good life learning for him. Ahhh, motherhood. 😉
Erica~
We will be dropping off our eldest cub for the 1st time(2 week camp) on Sunday.
You will hear me all the way from NC launching into the Ugly cry…
Need to get a tattoo that says Godspeed:)
Thanks for the post..
My best,
Patricia Rossi
What a great tattoo it would be! 😉 Thinking of you as well Patricia.